Seeing you....doen't hurt anymore.
Which is awesome, considering how freaking active you are on facebook.
No, now I look back and feel sorry for you. But even that's fading. You made your choice, you didn't want me. You wern't man enough to even say so to may face, but that was probably just because you were so afraid of my tears. I stopped crying over you about a week after you broke up with me over instant messaging (seriously....you're in the Army, grow a pair). I stand by what I said the last time you thought it would be a good idea to IM me. I waited for you for seven months, flew out to see you graduate from boot camp, and spent four days with your MOTHER...and you dumped me.....four days after you got home. You were an absolute ass to me, and you asked AS YOU BROKE UP WITH ME, if we could be friends. I'm not dumb enough to say yes anymore. Jerk.
But despite all that, the anger is gone. I had to grow from the unsure girl I was before dating you, to the confidant woman I am now. Now, oh dude, you wouldn't be able to handle me. Yeah, I'm waaaaay out of your league. Sorry you lose. I'm so much better-looking, so much smarter, so much more awesome then you ever were....or probably ever will be. Just being honest!
But, please stop trying to go back to being my best friend. Yes, before you pretty much WERE my best friend, you were there when I needed you, and I do thank you for that. But that time has past. My REAL Bestest Friend is back, and I'm with someone else now. And while you might be happy for me, there is NO WAY that it is ok to 'like' your ex's changed relationship status on facebook! Especially when your ex is making it clear she doesn't want to talk to you! I keep you on my friends list because, someday, MAYBE, we can go back to something. You just need to stop jumping the gun on this matter. Which means you do NOT send me messages asking how I am and telling me that you are thinking of me...cause that's not ok....
Sorry if this came out super-ansty and angry, but sometimes I think you forget what I went through, both during out relationship, and after you dumped me. And hey, you did say you always wanted to see my Irish temper, well there you go kiddo. But keep in mind...this was still me being nice. Keep bugging me and you can see it for real.
Woah, so no idea where this came from. Before you ask, no the Ex does NOT read this, so it's highly unlikely that he will ever see this entry, unless one of you has deduced my identity and send this on to him haha. Thankfully, it has been a few months since he tried talking to me again, so I guess I'm keeping this in case he ever does decide to talk to me again. But yeah, the whole relationship was a mistake, we ruined a friendship, dated for a month, he left for 7 months for boot camp, missed his X-box more then me, then broke up with me over IM 4 days after coming home.....Jerk. I spent $300 to fly down to see him! You know what I got? A crappy stuffed toy. And yes, he has tried to talk to me since the break-up (he is very dumb) and after I stared dating the Beau, he sent me a message on facebook asking how I was doing and if everything was ok. D-U-M-B!
That's my crappy relationship story, now tell me yours! Can you top mine? Hope you can't for your sake, but hey, even the crazy people want to date someone!
Monday, May 31, 2010
Sunday, May 23, 2010
So Glad I Never Promised You Anything
Cause I break promises.
That's just how I am.
But.
I do genuinely feel bad when I break promises.
So that's why.
If I did promise to blog on a certain schedule, I am sorry that I don't....except not really. I blog when funny stuff happens, or when I need to procrastinate. So iz allll good.
Currently I ought to be logging into my web account for Uni X and registering for classes. Eh, it'll get done haha.
KIDS! DO NOT BE LIKE ME WHEN YOU GET OLD! WORK HARD AND BE PRODUCTIVE!
I'm enjoying summer, thanks for asking. I wake up around ten, laze about all day then go to bed. Yes I am bored, again I thank you for asking. But I've gotten some job offers from people, so with a little luck, I might be getting a second job soon. Yaaay! Especially since I just spent $101.14 to get my car fixed and a gauge is now all wonkey. Maybe I should forget being an English major and go into automotive school! Fix my &@++ car myself!
Oh cripes I gotta return my textbooks! Someone remind me to do that....
All you LOST fans, hope you enjoyed the finale! I wated teh first season, but then I had Youth Group at the same time the show was on. By the time the night for YG had changed, I was so far behind and confused there was just no point in trying to figure out what was going on. And now I just don't care anymore, but I do hope that it was all you expected it to be. :)
I love it so much. I want a puppy JUST LIKE THAT.
Ditto for the hat.
Also to be clear, that is still not a picture of me, though that is an adorable puppy.
I must say, I love how all my loyal readers come and read the ramblings of this odd stranger. I'm a very strange girl and these posts are just a sampling of my thought process. Scary thought, ain't that?
Now thanks for reading, I'm gonna go comment back to ya'll for the comments you left on my last few blogs that I haven't gotten to. Laaaazyyyyyyy.
That's just how I am.
But.
I do genuinely feel bad when I break promises.
So that's why.
If I did promise to blog on a certain schedule, I am sorry that I don't....except not really. I blog when funny stuff happens, or when I need to procrastinate. So iz allll good.
Currently I ought to be logging into my web account for Uni X and registering for classes. Eh, it'll get done haha.
KIDS! DO NOT BE LIKE ME WHEN YOU GET OLD! WORK HARD AND BE PRODUCTIVE!
I'm enjoying summer, thanks for asking. I wake up around ten, laze about all day then go to bed. Yes I am bored, again I thank you for asking. But I've gotten some job offers from people, so with a little luck, I might be getting a second job soon. Yaaay! Especially since I just spent $101.14 to get my car fixed and a gauge is now all wonkey. Maybe I should forget being an English major and go into automotive school! Fix my &@++ car myself!
Oh cripes I gotta return my textbooks! Someone remind me to do that....
All you LOST fans, hope you enjoyed the finale! I wated teh first season, but then I had Youth Group at the same time the show was on. By the time the night for YG had changed, I was so far behind and confused there was just no point in trying to figure out what was going on. And now I just don't care anymore, but I do hope that it was all you expected it to be. :)
This is my new desktop background
I love it so much. I want a puppy JUST LIKE THAT.Ditto for the hat.
Also to be clear, that is still not a picture of me, though that is an adorable puppy.
I must say, I love how all my loyal readers come and read the ramblings of this odd stranger. I'm a very strange girl and these posts are just a sampling of my thought process. Scary thought, ain't that?
Now thanks for reading, I'm gonna go comment back to ya'll for the comments you left on my last few blogs that I haven't gotten to. Laaaazyyyyyyy.
Thursday, May 20, 2010
VERY IMPORTANT QUESTION!!!!
I am ONE A- away from a 4.0 this semester. That means I got 4 A's and ONE A MINUSSSS. Boo. So now I'm wondering if I should e-mail my teacher and ask if there is any way he would consider giving me an A. I'm not being a jerk, I think I did well enough in the class, and I definitely talked the most of everyone in class. But I really don't want to seem like a jerk. But it would be really cool if I got a 4.0 (without actually even trying lol). But its just a grade....hmmmm
Thought?
Opinions?
Fuzzy puppies to distract me from this?
Thought?
Opinions?
Fuzzy puppies to distract me from this?
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Really? Me? Wowzers, Thanks!
I smile. Like, ALL THE TIME. :)
SEE????
I do it because I figure the world is so dour and gloomy that if I can in some small way brighten someone's day then I should! You should too, because you never know, smiling at people can lead them to say suuuperrrr nice things to you, like it did for me a few weeks ago at work. It was one of those days when something bad would happen but be immediately glossed over when something good happened which would then be checked out by something bad and so on. Well, as I was wandering around at work, getting paid to ponder the strange balance of good/bad in this particular day, I just absently smile at an old lady. She sees me, smiles back, and I assumed that would be the end of it.
But she came over to talk to me.
As I said in my first blog, my job is boring. What I did not say was that at my job I have a super power. Yes I do. Anyone with the same job that I do has this ability. I can become.....INVISIBLE!
Gasp! Yep, its true, if I ever mention my profession, test it out. Generally speaking we're only seen if we WANT to be seen. Like goblins, elves, and faeries. Back to the story...
So this lady comes over to me and says: "Oh honey, you're so beautiful! You know, you could be a model! Your skin, your hair, your smile, everything!" I fumbled out a thank you while grinning like an idiot, and she went on, "Thank you so much for smiling and for letting me come over and talk to you." And she left.
Wow.
Really.
:)
Other girls might get that all the time. But not me. I've never complemented to my face in such a kind and sincere way. I'm not ugly, but I don't often see myself as beautiful. I'm average. Brown hair and eyes, average (but slightly curvy) size, still spotty with my complexion, a bit on the tall-ish side. Nothing too special. But wow, ever since that lady told me that I was beautiful enough to MODEL....wow. Kinda made me see myself differently.
Like how my hair really is cool, its got these awesome, sexy, natural waves to it, and its naturally streaked with red. My eyes are bright and expressive like a Disney character, and my eyebrows are soooo much fun. My lips are full, not like Angelina Jolie, but they hold their own. I've got a great smile and laugh that makes my eyes crinkle all up and my nose wrinkle so adorably! Sure, I still get zits, but having them has taught me how to apply makeup really well. And the curves? Oh baby, size 12 is not fat. I'm either soft and cuddly like a Care Bear, or voluptuous and stunning like classic (read: NOT rail thin) model.
I am ME. And I LOVE being me. It's taken me 21 years, but I can finally wake up and more days then not, I love me. I don't see the fat, awkward, shy girl I saw for years. Nope. Now I wake up in the morning feeling like P. Diddy....Wait, no I don't. Sorry, I hate Ke(insert stupid dollar sign)ha too, but it's so much fun to make fun of a little white girl that feels like a big black dude when she wakes up.....oh, its just me that thinks that?....*ahem*....moving on....I feel beautiful, quirky, silly, smart, clever, blessed, and unique. It's taken years to change that stupid mindset I had, but now I look back and think "GIRL (apparently my inner voice is a sassy black woman)! What were you THINKING?? You are a Rock Star!! Get out there and blow them all away, your stage is set and the audience is cheering for YOU!!!!! I love you and you'll do just fine. Now get out there and shine baby girl. It's what you were born to do."
Use those words, or whatever variation you deem suitable, when you need. Because I'm here now, cheering you on. You are beautiful. You are so smart. Your talents absolutely blow me away. And I mean all this so sincerely, you ROCK and I love you so much. Get out there and rock.
Meanwhile I shall return to my papers that are due. One more page for American Lit (this will be interesting since I ran out of stuff to say, oh 4 pages ago...), then 3 for Interpersonal Communication, and 3 for Biomedical Ethics (on the ever cheerful topic of abortion!). And miles to go before I sleep......
SEE????
I do it because I figure the world is so dour and gloomy that if I can in some small way brighten someone's day then I should! You should too, because you never know, smiling at people can lead them to say suuuperrrr nice things to you, like it did for me a few weeks ago at work. It was one of those days when something bad would happen but be immediately glossed over when something good happened which would then be checked out by something bad and so on. Well, as I was wandering around at work, getting paid to ponder the strange balance of good/bad in this particular day, I just absently smile at an old lady. She sees me, smiles back, and I assumed that would be the end of it.
But she came over to talk to me.
As I said in my first blog, my job is boring. What I did not say was that at my job I have a super power. Yes I do. Anyone with the same job that I do has this ability. I can become.....INVISIBLE!
Gasp! Yep, its true, if I ever mention my profession, test it out. Generally speaking we're only seen if we WANT to be seen. Like goblins, elves, and faeries. Back to the story...
So this lady comes over to me and says: "Oh honey, you're so beautiful! You know, you could be a model! Your skin, your hair, your smile, everything!" I fumbled out a thank you while grinning like an idiot, and she went on, "Thank you so much for smiling and for letting me come over and talk to you." And she left.
Wow.
Really.
:)
Other girls might get that all the time. But not me. I've never complemented to my face in such a kind and sincere way. I'm not ugly, but I don't often see myself as beautiful. I'm average. Brown hair and eyes, average (but slightly curvy) size, still spotty with my complexion, a bit on the tall-ish side. Nothing too special. But wow, ever since that lady told me that I was beautiful enough to MODEL....wow. Kinda made me see myself differently.
Like how my hair really is cool, its got these awesome, sexy, natural waves to it, and its naturally streaked with red. My eyes are bright and expressive like a Disney character, and my eyebrows are soooo much fun. My lips are full, not like Angelina Jolie, but they hold their own. I've got a great smile and laugh that makes my eyes crinkle all up and my nose wrinkle so adorably! Sure, I still get zits, but having them has taught me how to apply makeup really well. And the curves? Oh baby, size 12 is not fat. I'm either soft and cuddly like a Care Bear, or voluptuous and stunning like classic (read: NOT rail thin) model.
I am ME. And I LOVE being me. It's taken me 21 years, but I can finally wake up and more days then not, I love me. I don't see the fat, awkward, shy girl I saw for years. Nope. Now I wake up in the morning feeling like P. Diddy....Wait, no I don't. Sorry, I hate Ke(insert stupid dollar sign)ha too, but it's so much fun to make fun of a little white girl that feels like a big black dude when she wakes up.....oh, its just me that thinks that?....*ahem*....moving on....I feel beautiful, quirky, silly, smart, clever, blessed, and unique. It's taken years to change that stupid mindset I had, but now I look back and think "GIRL (apparently my inner voice is a sassy black woman)! What were you THINKING?? You are a Rock Star!! Get out there and blow them all away, your stage is set and the audience is cheering for YOU!!!!! I love you and you'll do just fine. Now get out there and shine baby girl. It's what you were born to do."
Use those words, or whatever variation you deem suitable, when you need. Because I'm here now, cheering you on. You are beautiful. You are so smart. Your talents absolutely blow me away. And I mean all this so sincerely, you ROCK and I love you so much. Get out there and rock.
Meanwhile I shall return to my papers that are due. One more page for American Lit (this will be interesting since I ran out of stuff to say, oh 4 pages ago...), then 3 for Interpersonal Communication, and 3 for Biomedical Ethics (on the ever cheerful topic of abortion!). And miles to go before I sleep......
Friday, May 7, 2010
Awesome Things!
1) Momma had her surgery and all went well. She's home, a bit uncomfortable, but getting better every day :)
2) I GOT MY ACCEPTANCE LETTER!!!!!!!!!!!!! squeee!!!!! Totally going to University X in the fall WOOHOO!!
3) I found two old Pokemon games in one of my brothers old rooms, so I totally stole it and am using Momma's DS (Yeah, hers. Why my Mother has a GameBoy but I do not is a story for another time, remind me someday and I'll tell it) to play Leaf Green and Ruby. I played Sapphire, Ruby's counterpart, years ago so I'm excited to catch the Pokemon I couldn't get in the other game. Yes, this does deserve the 3rd spot for Awesome Things. I like Pokemon. I'm a huge nerd.
4) A book that I've been dying to read was at the library today! Abraham Lincoln Vampire Hunter. I might post a review of it once I'm done.
5) We've had some awesome thunderstorms here lately. LOVE thunderstorms :)
6) Just one more week until classes are over for the summer! Ahhh bliss.
7) My Bestest Friend and I are going to visit one of my out of state siblings in August, and we will get to meet my nephew!
8) My nephew was adopted in February but I haven't had the time/money to go meet him. The pictures I've seen are just adorable, he looks so precious! But mam, has he grown. He went from a little bit of a thing to this huge monster dog!....oh wait, you didn't think I was talking about a real, human, people nephew did you? Hehe
9) Iron Man 2 is in theaters. And though I have heard it's rubbish, I don't care. Tony Stark is so prettyyyyy ;)
10) I got a refund for the DVDs I ordered a MONTH ago that never came in. Yaaay! I didn't think I was gonna get my money back at all, but hey there it is :) Not gonna complain!
11) I have new socks.
12) *BONUS AWESOME!* Today (May 8th) is Military Spouse Appreciation Day! Shout-out to my sister-in-law (who does not know about this blog, but I still thought it would be nice) who, three years ago, marred my bro in the National Guard :)
2) I GOT MY ACCEPTANCE LETTER!!!!!!!!!!!!! squeee!!!!! Totally going to University X in the fall WOOHOO!!
3) I found two old Pokemon games in one of my brothers old rooms, so I totally stole it and am using Momma's DS (Yeah, hers. Why my Mother has a GameBoy but I do not is a story for another time, remind me someday and I'll tell it) to play Leaf Green and Ruby. I played Sapphire, Ruby's counterpart, years ago so I'm excited to catch the Pokemon I couldn't get in the other game. Yes, this does deserve the 3rd spot for Awesome Things. I like Pokemon. I'm a huge nerd.
4) A book that I've been dying to read was at the library today! Abraham Lincoln Vampire Hunter. I might post a review of it once I'm done.
5) We've had some awesome thunderstorms here lately. LOVE thunderstorms :)
6) Just one more week until classes are over for the summer! Ahhh bliss.
7) My Bestest Friend and I are going to visit one of my out of state siblings in August, and we will get to meet my nephew!
8) My nephew was adopted in February but I haven't had the time/money to go meet him. The pictures I've seen are just adorable, he looks so precious! But mam, has he grown. He went from a little bit of a thing to this huge monster dog!....oh wait, you didn't think I was talking about a real, human, people nephew did you? Hehe
9) Iron Man 2 is in theaters. And though I have heard it's rubbish, I don't care. Tony Stark is so prettyyyyy ;)
10) I got a refund for the DVDs I ordered a MONTH ago that never came in. Yaaay! I didn't think I was gonna get my money back at all, but hey there it is :) Not gonna complain!
11) I have new socks.
12) *BONUS AWESOME!* Today (May 8th) is Military Spouse Appreciation Day! Shout-out to my sister-in-law (who does not know about this blog, but I still thought it would be nice) who, three years ago, marred my bro in the National Guard :)
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