Day 30: A Letter To Myself

Dear Mackaboo,

Hey gorgeous. I know what it's like to be you. I know how lonely you feel sometimes. I know how long you sometimes wait by the phone for someone, anyone, to text you and make you feel less forgotten. I know how you struggle with feelings of inadequacy. The mask of confidence you wear is pretty darn good at this point, but have you noticed (I sure have), that every days its a little less of a mask and more a reflection of you? I be you have noticed. You've certainly noticed how people seem to be treating you differently. 

Yeah, you're nostalgic for childhood, but what's up ahead is looking pretty exciting too. You're approaching a cross roads, one path will lead you to friends old and new and spiritual growth. The other path will lead you to family and new friends where your faith will be challenged daily by everyone around you. But either choice you make, don't fret too much. Mistakes WILL happen, but that doesn't mean the adventure is over. the confidence your building is gonna come into play soon, so gird up girl, who knows whats coming next!

And for every time you've felt forgotten or left out...it's ok. Those are just temporary feelings that don't reflect how others around you actually feel. You are loved by so crazy many people! You have a personality like a lightning bug, people are fascinated by your glow! Just keep glowing kiddo.

Hugs and kissies,

Mackaboo

Wow. The final prompt. Honestly thought about giving up on this, giving up on the blog, and just blogging under a new name. But I kept going, even though it took me MUCH longer then 30 days! Thanks for sticking with me. I've been re-bitten by the blogging bug, so keep watching and reading.

Hugs and kisses to YOU!

Mackaboo

Day 29: Something I Hope to Change About Myself

Ah here we go. This is a good, thought-provoking question.

There are a few things I would like to be different. I do like my weight and figure, but I do wish that my tummy wasn't quite as Pop 'n Fresh-esque as it currently is. I want to always be striving to be a better person. I want to be a better friend, to be more comfortable in my own skin, to be more focused, to become a real lady. I want to stop lying, stop being lazy, stop speaking before I think, stop being so critical of Little

Brother.

But then, a perfect woman would truly be a fearsome thing to behold, wouldn't it?

Day 28: Whay Would I Do If I Found Out I Was Pregnant?

I'd call my pastor since the only way I'm getting knocked up right now is if its 

Immaculate Conception Round 2.

Waiting until marriage For The Win!

If, however, I was married I'd tell my husband and we'd probably be pretty thrilled!

Day 27: What is the Best Thing Going for Me Right Now?

As I've mentioned before (many a time), I hate being in college. It's a necessary annoyance for me. I don't like sitting in classes I don't care about, dealing with narrow minded liberal professors who jump down your throat any time you express an idea counter to their 'correct' opinions, I'm sick of dealing with people my age who are just some of the worst people you'll ever meet, and just tired of the college game. I want the real world!

But, I know in the long run that college will more then pay off. Having a Bachelors Degree will open doors and help me land a good paying job. And at this point its just one year left to go! One more schedule to make, two more rounds of drop/add, two more midterms, two more rounds of final exams.

Hold on to your hats people, come September, the Sprint to the End starts!

Day 26: Have You Ever Thought About Giving Up on Life? If So, Why?

I've gone through some emotionally trying times in my life, but I have never seriously contemplated suicide. Rather, when I want to leave my life, its more of a desire to pack up and slip away, to start over with a new life and a new me. Somewhere no one knows me or my family or has any expectations for me to try to live up to. I could make myself over, see who I become.

Maybe someday I will leave this town. But now with some maturity under my belt I've realized I could never just up and cut all ties. I'd miss my friends, family, and routine too much to just leave everything I know without a plan or time to adjust to the idea...

Day 25: The Reason I Believe I'm Still Alive Today

It's simple. I'm still alive because I haven't blinked.


'And that's it, I'm afraid. There's no more from you on the transcript, that's the last I've got. I don't know what stopped you talking but I can guess: they're coming. The angels are coming for you, but listen, your life could depend on this: don't blink. Don't even blink. Blink and you're dead. They are fast, faster than you could believe. Don't turn your back, don't look away, and don't blink! Good luck'
-The Doctor
Doctor Who 'Blink' 2007


Can you tell I'm getting bored with these questions?

Day 24: Make a Playlist to Someone, and Explain Why I Chose All the Songs

Wow, this is a surprisingly tough one....I guess I'll just do a one for me and for how I'm feeling at the moment. My very last summer vacation is here, and I'm enjoying every minute!

Everyday-Dave Matthews Band. Such a happy song, makes me want to hug everyone.

Dive In-Dave Matthews Band. The song isn't the 'happiest' of songs on the list, but I love the line 'Summers her to stay and those sweet summer days will last forever'. That is exactly how I'm feeling right now. Especially a few nights ago, I had a fire with my friends and I kept thinking of those lines.

Uncharted-Sarah Barellis. 'Compare where you are to where you wanna be and you'll get..nowhere'. Again, not crazy optimistic, but I love the sound of this song. Its kinda where I am in my life, not knowing whats ahead, but knowing I'll make my own way.

Every Teardrop is a Waterfall-Coldplay. Cannot get ENOUGH of this song! Chris Martin is gorgeous. I think I'm in love with his voice.

We Are Golden-Mika. I cannot listen to this song without dancing and jumping around crazily.

Don't Fear the Reaper-Blue Oyster Cult. This got stuck in my head the other day at work and it hasn't left. Not that I'm complaining!

Day 23: Something I Wish I Had Done In Life

Back at my Community College, I had the opportunity to go to England. I didn't go. I was still with the Ex, and I had to save my money to fly out and see him graduate. Mis-TAKE.

I tell myself that there aren't any plans to move the island, and that I'll get there someday. But the reality of it is, that would have been the best time for me to go. Soon I'll have a 'real job' to work around and grown up responsibilities to deal with. What I'd now like to do would be, when I get married the husband and I would do something small for my honeymoon, and for our one year anniversary we'd fly to England for as long as possible...hey, a gal can dream!

Day 22: Something I Wish I Hadn't Done In Life

Start this challenge, oh my stars DOES IT EVER END??!!?!?!?!

Day 21: My Best Friend is In a Car Accident and We'd Fought Only Hours Earlier

This is a ridiculous question.

So here's the main cast of A Very Potter Musical instead!

From L to R:Joey Richter as Ron Weasley, Darren Criss as Harry (Freakin) Potter, and Bonnie Gruesen as Hermione Granger.

Both of my best friends like this musical very much.

As do I.

If they were in the hospital after an accident, I'd be there singing them songs from the musical to make them feel better.

Day 20: My Views on Drugs and Alcohol

I dunno, the picture made me laugh. Of course it's not relevant but who cares!

Erm, drugs are bad. Dur. Don't do em.

Booze is ok, so long as you can hold your liquor. Don't drink and drive. Don't puke on me or on my stuff. If you need booze to socialize, be a better person. You'll meet better people and won't need liquid courage.

Day 19: What Do You think of Politics?

Look at that logo, then look at the sate of American politics today. Then look back at the logo, then back at American politics. How do you THINK I feel about politics?!

Day 18: My Thoughts on Gay Marriage

Romans 3:23-24

ALL of us struggle against a burden. For some, its gambling, for some its drinking, for others its vanity or pride. Personally, I struggle with laziness, anger, apathy, and gossip.

But for some, their struggle is with matters of sexual desire. Whether its desire towards someone notably older/younger, someone within your own family, or someone within your own gender, they have something to struggle against that I can't even imagine having to deal with. But God didn't come for the perfect people, perfect people don't need saving. God sent His Son for the lost. For the imperfect. For those of us who struggle.

Some of you might be wondering with this has to do with the days topic, but don't you fret, I'm getting to it!  

God established marriage to be a sacred bond between a man and a woman, representing the bond between
God and his church. People that cite divorce rates of straight marriage don't realize that there is something wrong with how we as a nation look at marriage. It's not just something fun or cute, its not easy. Marriage has become less about the joining of two lives and more of an excuse to buy a really REALLY big/expensive dress and be a bridezilla. We need to fix our marriages, we need top prepare those heading towards marriage. Letting gay people marry isn't going to fix the divorce rates, its not going to be a magic fix for broken families, it won't be the magic cure-all that people think it will be.

Day 17: A Book That You've Read That Changed Your Views on Something

I've mentioned in previous posts, that I am a born-again Christian. But even having grown up in a church environment, having gone to a Catholic school until 3rd grade, and knowing more pastors by age 12 then most people will know in their entire lifetime, there are still some aspects of the Christian walk that I'm 'fuzzy' on. I've been trained from childhood that prayer is an important part of our daily walk, but until reading these books I had no clue of how important prayer is to daily spiritual warfare. Though these books are indeed fiction, there is so much in these books that made me aware of the constant unseen battles surrounding me as two opposing teams duke it out over my soul.

Day 16: Something/Someone That I Definitely Could Live Without

My iPod is black, Little Brother gave it to me two years ago when he got a new iPod.

Don't get me wrong, I LOVE my iPod, but sometimes I worry that I've become too reliant on electronics. My generation demands constant amusement, we must be up to date with the latest electronics all the time. Why do we play the game? Why do we waste our money on technology that will be obsolete within 5 years?

Day 15: Someone or Something You Can't Live Without

No, that is not my family. But it would be cool if it was.

I could never exist without my family. I know, I know, cheesy reply. But anything else I could think of (car, i-pod, cell phone, books, shoes) just wasn't as necessary as my family. I can exist without my family, but I make more sense within the context of the family fold. We complement each other, drive each other crazy, and love each other to bits. Even when we disagree or are faced with hard times, we band together.

I think for our next family picture, the kids (all eight of us including me and the two daughters in law) should be wearing full KISS makeup

Day 14: A Hero Who Let You Down

Aw Bats, why'd ya have to go and be killed? I was always so proud that my favorite DC superhero had never been killed and have a stupid 'magically returned from deathhhhhhh!' storyline. Those stories are dumb. But I want you back. I want you back so badly. I haven't been able to read the newest story lines, so by now you might very well have been brought back. But I'll still always be kinda sad that you died. Cause comics really won't be the same for me anymore.


I am entirely serious in this.

Day 13: A Band or Artist That Got You Through Some Tough Days.

Rascall Flatts

&

Taylor Swift

Thank you so much for being there. First breakups are hard, but you helped me believe I would get through it. And I did. So don't make fun of country music, it is what it is: sappy, over-sentimentalized, and mentions pick-up trucks more then any other style of music.

But when I was in one of the saddest points of my life, country music reminded me that I wasn't alone in my sadness and that people don't actually die from broken hearts.

Day 12: Something People Never Seem to Complement You On.

I have beautiful, big, brown, expressive eves. My eyes are easily my own favorite part of my face (can't say what other peoples fav part is). But behind glasses and a thick veil of messy hair, my eyes get missed.

Day 11: Something People Seem to Compliment You the Most On.

 

NO, not for my resemblance to dogs!

I'd probably go with listening for this one, I honestly enjoy listening to people and trying to help them. When my friends are hurting there isn't much that I can often do for them. I'm not physically imposing, I don't have the funds to fly across the country at the drop of a hat, and I can't leap tall buildings in a single bound (well..not EVERY day). So I just listen and let people vent and rage and decompress. It's what I'm good at. Even when I'm caught up in all my own dramaz and pain, sometimes the best thing to listen to someone who needs a friendly ear. :)

So if you need me, just talk. I'm listening.