Sorry I didn't post this yesterday, it wended up being a crazy day with me being woken up to go visit my aunt who had to be hospitalized suddenly, a 3 hour mid-day nap, and girls night out with Katie. Not what I'd expected for my first day on break! Alright, lets get tot this...
Forgive myself, eh? This was a bit tricky, I had to think a while until I realized what I was overlooking. My baby brother. I need to forgive myself for things I've said to and about him, for how I've treated him, and for not being the sister I should be. I blame myself for 'messing up' the birth order, instead of it being all five boys then me, it's four boys, me, last brother. Sometimes I can't help but think that if he and I had been switched that many of the problems we have wouldn't have happened or been as emo-riffic as they were
Forgiving myself for this has been a process, and every time I lose my temper at him I have to forgive myself again. Repairing the last few years of discord have been difficult, and it is SO EASY to slide back into old habits with him. But I do try to be a better sister, a better person with him. I try to give him grace and ignore his obnoxious behavior. When he yells at me I try to stay calm and leave him to cool down as quickly as possible. It's not going to be an overnight thing, as one of my friends said when I asked him to pray for my brother and I, we expect things to change overnight but they take time. Or something to that effect. It was awhile ago.
So there ya go, I'm not perfect. Actually, looking over the topics, my imperfections will become glaringly obvious at times....sheesh. Well, on to the next day!
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